This is my return and first blog post in about seven weeks, due to the arrival of my very gorgeous and ever-changing, baby girl on the 23rd of February!
During the last seven weeks, I think I’ve pretty much gone through every emotion there is out there: Fear, anxiety, tiredness, anger, grief, mourning, happiness and the jealousy that comes with comparing myself to other mums with three kids. Was I as good as them? What about other Tarot Readers? Did I still “have it”? Should I return now, or wait?
I managed to get some time a few weeks ago to start preparing the blog for a come back, and I thought and pondered about what I would do and when. Those questions above made me think for most of the Easter Weekend and here is what I’ve decided. I won’t be blogging every day, not yet. I’m going to stick to twice a week for the moment to dip my toes back into the water, probably on a Sunday and a Wednesday and give myself the time the children, family and I deserve. These early days are so precious and I know from experience that they’re unique to each child and that they’ll never ever come again!
Whilst I was away and up at the various stupid o’clock hours (as the newborn demanded) I got chance to read other people’s blogs: a rare thing for me, as I didn’t get time to read all the ones I wanted to. But at a 2am feed, I could, providing the site had a mobile plug-in so I could read it on the iPhone! Then I got into comparing my abilities with those of other readers whose blogs I was reading and it took me a few weeks to realise something: I don’t need to compare myself to the people whose blogs I was reading. I really ought not to do that, truth be told and when I came across this blog post, I made a decision. I shall try damn hard not to compare myself, no matter how “low” I might feel.
I am also going to be introducing an “angle” for how to read the cards. Whilst I was on leave, a fantastic idea was launched by Tierney Saddler and I had to get it when I saw how it was being used. It’s called Deck of 1000 Spreads (site is here) and it can help focus on an aspect of a card and its interpretation in a spread. (A spread is how the cards are laid out).
So with all that in mind, I bid you welcome back!